some thoughts to pass the time
2003-04-05 || 6:30 p.m.

I want to rip my heart out and burn it. I want to blow my brains to a million little pieces so that each bit is too small to be a conscious thought. I want to jump and fall forever. I want to take every single thing that ever made me 'me' and lock them away in one of those ancient burial places where the sun only comes in once a year, and then only to torment me with the reminder of the light in everyone else. I want to sleep and never wake up again.