I'm not sure if I am alive
2003-01-25 || 7:42 p.m. It builds up and it builds up and it builds up and then I have such a need to hurt. There are so many things I need. None of which I will ever have. I need to be held. I want to have sex. I want to find a man who wants and needs the same things I do. I feel like the tide came in over my mind and washed it away like grains of sand. I wonder now if anything is real. Do I just 'remember' things that are archetypal memories? I'm feeling more and more as if that is the case. I am so unhappy. I am permanently on the edge of tears. I just so want to be held again before I get much older. I like the way I look now.
I feel so sad, so pathetic and so alone. |
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