The Journey - Part XII
2002-11-24 || 1:47 p.m. The hemlock from the last entry was making me drowsy. I need to write to stay awake and continue the journey. I hate platitudes. I hate being stopped from doing what I want to do. I hate this living in my head stuff but I cannot escape. There is no real world to escape to. The real world is flat and has nothing in it. I don't know how people stand it. I can't join you there because I just don't know how to get in. I'm never satisfied, not with anything. Everything about me is a sham. I'm finally beginning to realise something though and that is that it really doesn't matter what I write or what I think. Ultimately it all vanishes into nothingness. Just like me. I am a metaphor for thought. Haha. I can't make sense of the solid, where does it come from? I get the problem. Physically I'm in the solid but mentally I'm somewhere else. Fuckers. The landscape is definitely changing now. 'Definitely' - a word that has more meaning for me than you would know. A word that binds together. I hate writing cryptically. My mind feels like someone let all the air out.
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