spiralling out of control
2002-11-19 || 7:30 a.m. Last night I left my body. I thought it was a dream when I woke up but as I was washing I saw this tiny little blemish under my eye, hardly anything, just a very small, almost indiscernible spot and I remembered looking at it from above myself last night. It is the sheer physical and emotional tiredness of nothingness that causes this. Sometimes I just need not to be in this body. Always I just need not to be me. Once I cut myself for a reason other than myself. It was sensual and never to be repeated. Now I cut myself to remind myself that destruction will never be complete. But I thank those of you who are helping. Now I go to walk the dog. NO-ONE WOULD EVER GUESS FROM THE OUTSIDE JUST HOW i FEEL ON THE INSIDE. |
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