Hateful and hollow
2002-06-03 || 6:57 p.m.

Boy am I depressed. You know, this is why I don't drink alcohol. And when I do, I just feel fucking suicidal. I only ever get hateful feelings towards myself - not towards others, thankfully.

I've been in bed all afternoon. I couldn't do anything else. Something totally nasty happened to me and I couldn't stay up.

I've got to go, I can't write anymore now.