i think i'm alone now
2003-11-26 || 6:53 p.m.

I feel awful today. Really depressed. Sad and hollow and empty. I just want to curl up on myself until I no longer exist.

I have a headache from all the things I cannot do and all the things I do wrong.

I feel crushed at how much Jane hates me even though I don't know her and I'm only ever friendly to her. She just cuts me dead and blanks me and makes me feel like a piece of dirt.

I am a piece of dirt and I suppose she can see that.