and there is nothing more I want
2003-08-12 || 8:55 p.m.

I wish that people I care for didn't have to suffer.

I know that the stupid scenes I have in my head will never come true and its just so neither here nor there but I do wish for things to be good and right for others.

Things are just going to go black again because there's no way things can be anything else.

And I should just so fucking get over it and accept my sub-human status. Why am I so stubborn? And I just so wish for some rain. And I just so wish for this stomach ache to go away. And I just so wish for beauty for everyone else.